The Evil Voice Called Ego

​During a conversation with an intuitive friend recently, because I value her insight and it’s really hard to be objective about oneself, I asked her if she minded checking into my energy on a situation I had been struggling with.

Upon observing my energy, she confirmed the feelings I was having. Which was comforting. Unfortunately, like myself who felt that “an important piece of the puzzle” has yet to be revealed, I was left still pondering action steps. For impatient and action-oriented me, this was discouraging.

After giving me her gut feelings and seeing the slight disappointment cross my face, she asked for a little more information. She hoped to put a little more context around and confirm the messages she was receiving.

I was only too happy to oblige.

Once I did, part of me wished I hadn’t. With the additional information, my dear friend went deep into friend mode and, rather than providing objective or gut feelings, she broke into a long monologue on how I could “fix” the situation. This soliloquy included coaching on how to apply energetic techniques to improve the energy around me and manifest my desires…. the same techniques I present and coach my students in during my basics of mediumship classes.

At first I smiled. She has a big heart and was trying to help. But, as the one-sided conversation continued, I found myself annoyed and physically stiffening and rolling my eyes.

Why? My ego was rearing its ugly head. My ego was insulted. It became the evil voice in my head was saying things such as– “Doesn’t she know I teach this stuff?” and “Of course, I’m doing it. I’m not a dummy…” and the worst, “Well that’s a stupid technique, especially if not applied properly. What does she really know”

Recognizing the ugliness that was growing inside me and disliking myself for it, I took a moment to take a deep breath. When I find myself in situations like this, I ALWAYS take a deep breath. Why? Because whether it’s to ground, center, protect or allow (in this case to center) it always brings my awareness back to the present and, most importantly, ME. By bringing my awareness to the present and to me, I can change the one thing I have control over – how I respond to things.

Upon breathing out the negativity, that’s exactly what I did. I stopped, reevaluated and asked myself “Why was I so upset?”

Well, I didn’t get an answer I liked. I was upset because of my own insecurities. Recognizing this allowed the kind Dawn I aspire to be to walk back in. With words reminding me “it wasn’t fair to be upset at her, I had asked her for insight after all” and, “she was trying to be helpful” the evil voice was silenced.

This moment of reflection also facilitated a teaching moment for myself. That teaching moment reminded me of a few things:

First and most importantly, it humbled me. I was reminded I still have to practice centering in a continual effort towards releasing the fears and insecurities that are harbored deep within.

The second, I was reminded how important it is to remain objective. If you remember, I mentioned I provided my friend with very little details of the situation. I do this to my intuitive friends all the time (they probably hate it). I’ll say something like, “how do you feel about the business opportunity that I have presented?” No more details as I want to know their off the cuff gut feeling. Why would I do such a thing? The more someone knows about a situation, the less objective they can be. If you’ve ever tried to forget something you overheard and weren’t supposed to know, you KNOW that’s impossible to do. Once someone is no longer objective, they do what my dear friend did. They search their memory banks for tools they have acquired over time and offer them to fix the situation. As this comes from their memory banks and their experience, it is their advice not inspired by Spirit.

And lastly, I remembered that sometimes advice someone offers is less about the recipient and more about the giver. It’s where the adage, “we teach what we need to learn,” came from. Perhaps she needed to hear those words herself.

In preparing this blog, my husband reminded me of one more lesson in all this. Even though we may already know something, doesn’t mean that we don’t need to be reminded.

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