There are times that being a medium sucks and I wish I could be “oblivious” to Spirit like the majority of our population. This week was one of those times.
Over the past few weeks, I’d had an awful wrenching feeling in the pit of my stomach. In addition to the feeling, I’ve “known” there would be a death in the family on or around Thanksgiving. Catch is… I didn’t know who.
Logically I thought Don and I were going to lose one of our remaining grandparents – my Nana (she’s 91!) has had a series of mini strokes since this summer, my husband’s Mom-Mom is in rehab after breaking her back (osteoporosis), and his grandmother’s husband, Bill, is in a nursing home after a series of strokes. Each has a limited life span, so it made sense that it would likely be one of them. With this in mind, I had prepared myself and my husband mentally for a loss of one of them. I’d even mentioned to several friends, “I have a bad feeling. Both my grandfathers died on Thanksgiving, I think I may be losing another grandparent this holiday.”
As it turns out, I wasn’t wrong about the feeling. I was wrong, however, about the person. On Wednesday evening, my stepbrother committed suicide.
I wasn’t particularly close to him – we saw each other on the holidays and that was about it. But there has been a tremendous amount of guilt. I KNEW something was going to happen. And I’m usually able to use these feelings to help guide other people. Why couldn’t I use the feeling to help my own family?
The reason is… I probably wasn’t meant to. As I tell many clients, I’m not going to get anything that you don’t have the control to change. And I know, there was nothing anything could have done for my stepbrother. That being said, knowing there was going to be a loss… Don and I were prepared for the shock. Guess I won’t be turning in my “gift” just yet….
Dawn Lynn is an EveryDay medium. She lives and breathes via her intuition, which as a fourth generation intuitive from a family of Spiritualists came easily. Her abilities became apparent in early childhood and were cultured by a supportive family. Through her Blogs and Vlogs, she wants to help you become the EveryDay medium too.