3 Explanations as to What is Really Happening
Plans change. On October 12th, exactly one week before the conference was scheduled to kick off I received a call from the President of the Chamber informing me that the conference was cancelled. No clear reason, just that it was off.
My first response was anger. With plans to arrive in LA in less than a week, the pricey flight and hotel arrangements were nonrefundable. So now not only had I invested a lot of money to attend but I was also I taking a week off during what is traditionally my busiest month AND I had already spent a good amount of time preparing for my role speaking and facilitating a conversation on blogging.
Once the initial frustration settled, I was baffled. Having assisted in the planning and execution of several multi-day conferences that each featured more than 30 speakers and brought in over 400 attendees, I could not wrap my head around HOW a conference of this scale could just be cancelled. Having planned conferences, I knew that at a week out there would have been expenditures that were non-refundable, such as venue deposits (if not the entire expense) to swag to keynote speaker fees. Not to mention the process of refunding (and explaining the situation to) the sponsors.
While trying to wrap my head around why the organization would make that decision was hard, I could see reasons. But where I REALLY got stumped was the universe’s motivation. The speaking engagement was not something I actively sought out. It was an opportunity that seemed to fall from the sky in my path. And for some time, all I could ask was, “Why?”
In response to that question, I have three answers:
The first is my husband’s take. He thinks it boils down to FREE WILL which he explained in the following way:
“Dawn, perhaps you were supposed to California and speak at the conference. Perhaps there were people you were supposed to meet and network with. But remember you are only one part of the equation, there are many parties involved and those parties have free will. Others decisions will impact you and they may not always be listening to their intuition or their highest and best is different.”
The free will in this case was that of the HCC’s President and her judgment as to whether or not the conference should occur. Perhaps the universe had aligned for me to be there and the universe assumed the conference was a go… and then it wasn’t.
That is one, potential. My friend has another idea. She suggested that I GOT THE MESSAGE BUT I DIDN’T UNDERSTAND THE WHY. Her thought of the why is that I just needed a vacation and this was the universe’s way of giving it to me. Perhaps the universe knew I wasn’t just going to take one so the universe was tricky and arranged it so that I would.
Both my husband and my friend made good points. And, it is completely possible that one or both are right. But I have a third option. I believe that there is something – perhaps a brief conversation I had with someone while there or someone saw my information in the advertisements for the conference or something I’m not even aware of – that will create an opportunity for me down the line. When we live our life by Spirit, the outcomes are not always a clear cause and effect. Rather, sometimes we cast our line and wait for the fish to snag the worm. It might be that day, a week or perhaps years later… but it connects somewhere.
So for now, I enjoyed my vacation and I am waiting.