You would think with the extended night, I’d be catching up on my sleep. My daughter is. My husband is. Even the dogs are…. But I am not.
Over the past few nights I’ve gone to bed at my normal time. Laid down. Pulled up the covers. Close my eyes and wait for sleep to set in. But 11pm turns becomes midnight, then one and two… and I’m still awake. Listening to my husband and dogs snore. Watching the moonlight shine in through the blinds. And hoping sleep will set in.
Not accustomed to insomnia, I know there must be something going on. And, being the type to like to “fix” things, I’ve been struggling to figure out what might be the reason so I can address it. In those late hours, I’ve pondered is it be my diet? Am I having caffeine too late in the day? Or perhaps something is out of whack and I’m sick? None of these resonate… I’ve been eating better, don’t do too much caffeine and as for being sick, other than lack of sleep, I feel fine.
So then I start wondering… do I need to get a new mattress? Or maybe it is too warm in the bedroom? Maybe I should turn down the heat. Or it could be the dogs… they do seem to be taking up a lot more space in the bed than usual. But then again, these factors are the same as they were a month ago.
If that’s not it, maybe I am just stressed out about the holidays? It is a stressful time of year – lots to do. While this, and everything mentioned above, are probably all playing into my lack of sleep… I still feel as if there is something more.
Finally, in the light of day, while I am sitting here pondering what my blog will be about it hit me. The winter solstice and the New Year is a time of reflection and preparation. We have the chance to reflect on where we’ve been, what we’ve done and where we want to go. Something I have been avoiding… Being stubborn, I’ve wanted to relish and celebrate where I am not where I am going. As a living soul, however, until we die we are always moving forward… Because I am not consciously listening to the messages, the messages are coming when I am in a relaxed state and ultimately affecting my sleep – it has in the past, so it should be no surprise the same thing is happening now.
How do I rectify this? Appears I have to be my own student and practice what I preach – MEDITATION. I encourage others to carve a time and a place out to make a date with Spirit. It is then that Spirit can communicate big messages to you.
Although I want to put this off as I do have a lot left on my holiday to – do list: still have a few last presents to buy, cookies to bake, presents to wrap and dinner preparations… I’ve got to make that date or else I’m likely to have a lot more sleepless nights. And then nothing will get done this holiday season or perhaps even in the New Year!
Here is hoping the message comes and my sleep is restored!