In the past, especially in college, I fell into some of these patterns. I was one to drink a little too much (it was college afterall). Never did drugs though. Never had a desire. Never wanted to lose myself. Perhaps it’s because I’m a control freak. But alcohol… it was great. It deadened the mind and shut Spirit up. Well that’s not entirely true, Spirit continues to talk (ask my friends, they’ll tell you it’s when they get the best info out of me) but, with some alcohol in my system when Spirit talks, I don’t feel it. The clairsentience is turned off.
The empathic feelings that I liked to turn off was part of what led me into a deep depression after my car accident. At that time, in addition to the depression from the accident I was also wide open and didn’t know how to ground, center and protect. In an effort to deal with the emotions and the irrational feelings, I went to a counselor and a psychiatrist and several alternative therapy practitioners. On the days of my appointments, my mother reminded me not to talk about my communications with Spirit. So I’d go see the mental health practitioners, and then go to my mediumship development classes. The mental health practitioners helped me on the physical and emotional side, but it was only after embracing my gift that I got better and the depression subsided. It’s why I believe so strongly in the Mind-Body-Spirit approach to healing.
I’m a success story. I know it doesn’t work that way for everyone. Everyone’s path, and their pain is different. I know this all too well as my husband and I are currently struggling with the depression he experiences. The more he opens up to Spirit, the worse it’s gotten. Over the past year we’ve argued time and time again over his need to seek help. We had a cycle, he’d hold things in which would lead to depression, then anger, which would make me mad and then we’d yell (our arguments RARELY get loud.) After that it would get better for a little while. Unfortunately, these cycles went from months to weeks to only a couple days. At the beginning of the year, I broke down and told him he had to see someone. I couldn’t do it anymore. He’d been hesitant to go to a counselor as he didn’t want to be like me and hide his spirituality. Fortunately, at our breaking point, Spirit presented Don with a counselor who understands and is accepting of the fact that my husband and I communicate with Spirit. The sign Don needed.
Don’s journey to mental health is going to be a long and hard, it always is. And, probably lifelong. But, at least he has taken the first (second and third) steps: he’s acknowledged the problem, knows he has the power to change it AND has sought help. Now it’s in Spirits hands and just a matter of time.