Why do I feel that way you may ask?
Well physically, I’ve been feeling every one of my 34 years. Over the last month, I have woken up more days than not with headaches, groggy and with achy bones. And, if you were to talk to my chiropractor and massage therapist, she would tell you I’ve been all knotted up in my shoulders and neck. I’ve been trying to pass these aches and knots off on the weather, if I’m honest with myself I know that is not the reason. These aches and pains are a result of holding on to excess energy and not becoming fully grounded.
And that’s just the physical symptoms. If we talk about my focus and cognition. Well that’s been a hot mess!! A hot mess that’s been driving my hubby bonkers. Over the last couple weeks, I just can’t keep my focus on anything. In stores, if we find ourselves there more than ten minutes I start aimlessly wandering around looking for who knows what. And don’t even get started with conversations, the slightest distraction will take me off on a tangent which may or may not lead back to the original topic.
Again, a sign I’m ungrounded.
As for emotionally, I’ve been able to keep a cool head. Well most of the time and as long as I’m not caught off guard. Lately when I’m startled, it has been harder to redirect… as was the case when I was teaching and the venue had been unexpectedly changed. My students saw my frustration written all over my face. Not because I was mad, but because I felt on shaky ground.
Through all of this, I feel fortunate that I’m self-aware, I was able to recognize this and have been doing my darnedest to get myself grounded. I’ve been forcing myself to do grounding meditations. I’ve been walking around with hematite in my pocket. But most importantly I’ve forced myself to SLOW DOWN which has resulted in me spending more time playing with the baby and the dogs as well as doing the things I love like cooking.
Taking the time to slow down has reminded me that I can’t always be turned on. Nor can I continue to turn the switch to Spirit on and then abruptly turn the switch off. By doing this I’m short circuiting my connection to the earth, not allowing myself to heal and quite frankly just wearing myself out. So while it is hard to say NO, I have to remember that by saying NO and sticking to my boundaries (without making exceptions for a friend of a friend or someone who really “needs” a reading)… I’m going to do for myself, allow myself to heal and keep myself grounded! Maybe then I can leave the crystals at home!