I need to remember this when I am trying to get messages for myself. It would save me a lot of frustration.
Frustration and 50 bucks!
A few weeks ago I tried to replicate the clarity of a message I received last year (check out this blog for the full story). My husband and I had been up at the casino. When we arrived, my guides had clearly indicated where winnings would be. Back up there, after surprising my hubby with a night away, I hoped we might be able to walk away with some winnings. As I had learned my lesson and was not going to ignore a message again.
Unfortunately, this year my guides gave me NOTHING. No machine called to me. No sign that this machine was going to be a winner. I was blank. Nothing was coming through.
So I sat down at Lil’ Red, the machine that was promised (and was) the big winner last year. Nothing. I then sat at the Wizard of Oz machines, which have always paid out for me in the past. Again, nothing.
Feeling frustrated and worried I wasn’t going to win anything, I began to wander in hopes that my inner compass would start to tick and I’d be drawn to a machine.
Nope. I aimlessly walked round and round and round until a dizzy husband said, “Sometimes you’re just not meant to be a winner.”
I felt defeated. But then I looked up and saw a machine that looked “fun.” It was called Alice and based on Alice in Wonderland. Could this be my message? Fairy tale machines do seem to be my thing (Red Riding Hood, Wizard of Oz…). And, don’t messages often come when we are about to lose faith? After playing all scenarios over and over again in my head, I rationalized that this MUST BE the machine and I needed to play it!
Unfortunately, the two machines were already occupied. A couple was sitting there. Playing and chatting. So my husband and I set up camp a few machines down and hoped they would get up. After about ten minutes, it was apparent the couple was bunkered down and weren’t going anywhere anytime soon.
Disappointed, I told my husband, “Come on… let’s go do dinner.”
We picked up, made our way to the buffet and had a lovely meal. We sat. Laughed. And when we finished, he encouraged I check to see if Alice was open.
Another sign? It has to be meant to be, right? Excitedly, I sat down and started playing.
Spin after spin. I LOST. And within minutes all of my starting play money was gone. You see, I have a rule – I’m only willing to play and lose $20. When that’s gone, I’m done.
I follow that rule, most days…
Not that day however. You see, I had CONVINCED myself this was going to be a winner. And that Spirit was testing my faith. All I had to do was continue to play and put my faith in them.
So another $20 went into the machine. And then another $10.
Just when I was about to pull out another $20, my husband joined me (thank goodness!) to see how it was going. I explained the situation and astonished he asked, “Dawn, why in the world?? You never do that!!”
He was right. I never do that. I always trust my gut, and my gut was telling me I wasn’t going to be a winner. And yet, I tried to force the message and WORSE force Spirit to win for me. It doesn’t work that way. There is no personal gain.
So fifty dollars poorer, I learned my lesson. Next time I don’t get the message, I’ll walk away while I’m ahead.